DAY NINE: WHAT IS YOUR WORST HABIT
This is beyond easy to answer. I bite my nails!
The fancy term for it is psycho-motor agitation. I am an agitated person that abuses caffeine. My favorite reaction to someone seeing my nails is “Oh my god, how stressed are you?!” I don’t think I’m actually stressed… I think I’m just bored, which isn’t much better.
I’ve tried nail polish, I’ve tried acrylics (which actually worked, but I could barely use a pencil with the long nails), I’ve tried hot sauce, and the most recent one was press-on nails. Nothing really stops it. It’s a 28 year old habit that I want to get rid of more than anything.
If anyone has tips, let me know!
DAY EIGHT: WHAT’S IN YOUR HANDBAG?
I don’t have a handbag, but I have a wristlet that holds my entire life. I started using a wristlet over the summer. I needed something small to hold my important items and take with me to court in case we get locked out of the office. As time passed, it became my pencil case, my purse, my life.
So what is in the wristlet?
One blue ballpoint pen (from my previous paralegal life)
Six gel ink pen (one being black)
One felt tip pen (black)
Three mechanical pencils (WTF are those doing in there?)
One purple LexisNexis highlighter
A small mirror that used to be the mirror on the sun visor in my old car
One lip balm from Wet n’ Wild
One Kat Von D liquid lipstick
One debit card
One credit card
Clinic business cards
Two Espresso Royale punch cards
One Graham’s punch card
One coupon for a free drink at Espresso (because they booted me and a friend out of our seats one day)
That’s a lot of stuff! Soon it will have my AAA card because I keep having car troubles. Keeping it in my real wallet isn’t working out anymore, especially in this town. That’s all for now–barely made the post in time.
DAY SEVEN: PET HATES
I’m not entirely sure what “pet hates” are. I’m assuming that they are pet peeves to an increased degree of agitation. I have many, but I will list two big ones.
One in particular is not using the turn signal. I just don’t see why people don’t use it. It’s literally there to prevent accidents and to keep from wasting other people’s time. I could have turned if I’d have known you were turning. I would have let you into my lane with room if you’d have turned on your signal. It’s right by your hands! Why not use it?
I suppose another pet hate would be when people will not be upfront and honest. That sounds a little preachy, but I include stupid things like saying you like something when you don’t. I am a very honest and kinda blunt person and I would prefer that people are the same to me. I don’t understand the purpose of keeping things internalized and lettting it fester into something nasty or causing drama when there really doesn’t need to be. When there is a problem, why not express it so that we can work something out? It seems counter-intuitive to me to keep it in.
Another thing that frustrates me about people not being upfront and honest is that I am not a good person at picking up cues. See, I grew up a lonely kid, which means my social people skills/cues tend to be lacking a smidge. Sometimes I do not pick up what someone is putting down, so people need to actually express themselves. A lot of people expect me to just “get” things or “read the room.” I cannot read the room and I am not the only one. Not everyone needs to accommodate to me, but I think this is a bigger picture issue. When people speak up, no one else left guessing and there is less room for misinterpretation, especially if there’s a conversation.
So that is the quick way of making me flare up in fury, for those interested.
DAY SIX: YOUR FIVE SENSES RIGHT NOW
Sight: Right now I am looking at my computer screen, but I also have the computer angled so that I can see my awesome Christmas tree in the background. My roommate and I made a silent decision to not take down our tree until we move out. It’s probably one of the best decisions we’ve made.
Touch: I am touching my keyboard. It’s a little hard to feel right now though. My apartment is an icebox and my fingers are the first thing to freeze and go numb.
Smell: We have a pumpkin spice air freshener. No regrets. Even then, my roommate got it for me 🙂 #basic
Hearing: I just finished the 10 favorite songs post, so I am listening to the rest of my “Found” playlist where I keep the songs I hear off the radio.
Taste: A venti blonde roast from Starbucks that is slowly cooling in this ice box apartment.
When I first read this post, I had no idea what it meant. Luckily, I went to my source and found out. That should be all the last minute uploading for today. Until tomorrow!
DAY FIVE: 10 SONGS YOU LOVE RIGHT NOW
I love doing this. None of these songs are particularly hip or cool… or recent, but I love them more than I love myself.
- Dark Blue – Jack’s Mannequin
- Drunk on the Mic – Mickey Shiloh
- Wish I Knew You – The Revivalists
- Sit Next to Me – Foster the People
- 6 AM – Fitz and the Tantrums
- Mother, We Just Can’t Get Enough – New Radicals
- Es Tarde – Juanes
- Don’t – Bryson Tiller (shout out to my Maddogg)
- Mi Gente – J Balvin (either the original or Beyonce version is good in my book)
- Remember Me – Coco
I basically listen to the same songs on repeat. New songs are collected while driving and I can’t use my phone and drive. Sometimes I just forget what I heard, which is sad. Hopefully I’m better about that in 2018.
DAY FOUR: WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
Oh, let me count the ways. I am actually a very easy scare–people walk up too silently and I freak out, arms a-flyin’–but as far as real fears, I have some, especially now.
I am afraid of failing the bar. I took the LSAT three times because my score was not that great. The bar is significantly harder. I’m hoping that the methodology will get me through so that I can pass it the first time. Even if I fail it… there’s always the February bar. In the interests of not putting myself through hell and getting a job, I’d still like to pass it the first time.
If my mother were sitting next to me, she would tell me to stop thinking that way. However, I think acknowledging the fear is fine, as long as I work to overcome it. I plan on working my posterior off the entire summer so that I can do my best.
As far as fears that I cannot overcome no matter how much I study? Clowns. My mom doesn’t like them either. I think that it is because of a porcelain clown doll that I had in Dominican Republic when I was very young. We kept throwing it out because I was too young to play with it and my mom didn’t like it. Somehow, it found it’s way back to my grandparents’ house every time we tossed it. It still freaks us out to think about the doll.
DAY THREE: YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE
WHERE DO I BEGIN?
Firstly, anything by Nayyirah Waheed is amazing. Real talk. Everything she write strikes that chord in me that makes me close my eyes and reevaluate my perspective. There are so many quotes from Junot Diaz, Lin-Manuel Miranda, Dr. Seuss (no shame), quotes from my mother, and so many different poets and authors.
I actually hate the question of “favorites” because preferences are always changing. However, there has been one quote that has stayed with me since I was in seventh grade.
“From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.”
– Fire and Ice, Robert Frost
Yes, it is talking about the end of the world, it’s possibly talking about greed… but I think it’s a little more than that too. It’s about passion and being so consumed with it that the passion leads to destruction. Outside of the fact that I am a fiery, passionate person, I have always wanted to feel that strongly about something. It’s like finding your purpose and I suppose I am still searching for mine.